Apparently, dreams about losing teeth are symbolic of these issues:
- Fear of Death and Growing Old
- Symbol of Powerlessness
- Fear of Change
- Fear of Failure or Embarrassment
- Poor Health and Financial Instabilility
- Abandonment
And my teeth were still falling out.
Just thought I had to document this.
And YAY! for all my teams winning this weekend!
weirdHad my eyes checked just 7 months ago and got new contacts and glasses. Now everything is a blur again. Can't see clearly or read from far away. Have to put my face right up to the computer monitor. Constantly squinting. My glasses are just about useless. I'm walking around in a blurry haze and feel very vulnerable. As a hypochondriac, WebMD really scares me. Seriously worried about my eyes.
Anyone know of a good eye doctor?
I also think I have diabetes.
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scaredConfession:
Thanks to FiOS and the DVR, I have recently discovered "Say Yes to the Dress" & "Jon and Kate Plus 8", my new must-see shows, on TLC.
"Say Yes to the Dress," features brides shopping for their wedding dresses at Kleinfeld's in New York. All the wedding gowns are so droolworthy! Makes me dream about what kind of dress i want one day. And "Jon and Kate Plus 8," follows this family with sets of twins and sextuplets. It's fascinating and funny. The babies are SO adorable I just wanna gobble them up! Been DVR'ing and watching every single episode of both shows. And now there's a new show, "Twins, Twins & Sextuplets." I definitely have to catch that tonight.
Now I just want to get married and have lotz and lotz of bebez!
(I'm turning Monica-Gellar-marriage-&-babies-psycho.)
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crazy"There art two cardinal sins from which all others spring: Impatience and Laziness."
- Franz Kafka
I'm in trouble then.
"Money frees you from doing things you dislike. Since I dislike doing nearly everything, money is handy."
- Groucho Marx
Yay! 30 Rock returns tonight on NBC @ 9:30pm. WATCH IT!!
sleepyThe ones I liked for my iPod:






And ones I think would look better on my computer:





creativePretty dresses, but I've got nowhere to go. :(
I love this purple trench coat, but it's still too warm for jackets.
SO cute! I've been eyeing this Lucky Brand bikini all summer, and I finally got it now that it was on sale. Of course, summer's over and I won't be going swimming anytime soon. This is like the 5th swimsuit I bought just this year, and I haven't even worn them all yet. There are just so many pretty bathing suits out there and I want them all. They're one of my weaknesses. However, I hate my body and how I look in swimsuits. Go figure.
And some basic work bottoms. You can't see in the picture, but the skirt has a really beautiful eyelet texture and a cute skinny belt.
Comfy cute espradrille sandals already dirtied from overwearing.
And here's me modeling some of my new stuff. NOT the bikini though! And excuse the dirty mirror.
I NEED to go to the London 2012 Olympics.
Bring on Vancouver 2010!
- In real life, unlike in Shakespeare, the sweetness of the rose depends upon the name it bears. Things are not only what they are. They are, in very important respects, what they seem to be.
scared- I just need enough to tide me over until I need more.
- Taking Audit section of CPA exam in 11 days!! AAHHHH!
- Breaking Dawn comes out tomorrow at midnight! Yay! (This is NOT good for my already-lapsed studying habits.) Haven't decided if I want to go to a bookstore midnight release party to get it, or just wait til Saturday morning.
- The Olympics start next Friday! Yay! (Also not good for my studying)
anxious- Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time.
- The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.
- Currently at work. Not working.
- I miss playing the piano. I can't find my piano books anywhere.
- I want to learn how to play the guitar
- I wish I was at Comic-Con
- I'm such a geek. And proud of it.
- Twilight-Mania!
- Eagerly awaiting the 4th book in the Twilight saga, Breaking Dawn, in 1 week
- Taking the Audit section of the CPA exam on August 11th. Eek!
- Want to buy a fedora
- Hungry
- Love CARGO PlantLove lipstick
- Want to travel the world and never work again
- Wish I could speak other languages fluently. My Spanish sucks. Same Vietnamese.
- I have split ends. I play with them.
- Need my wisdom teeth out. Ouch.
- Now eating Potbelly's for lunch
- I hate my life
- Still not working






In other news, still studying for CPA exam. However, of course I've been distracted by reading the Twilight series and watching Doctor Who instead -- DW Finale on Saturday! So excited and nervous, don't want the Doctor to regenerate! Need Rose & the Doctor to be happy! I'm such a nerdy fangirl.
I'm the worst procrastinator in the world. MUST. GO. STUDY. NOW!
- 1st part of CPA exam, Financial, on Monday, May 19 - in just 11 days! YIKES! SO not studying well. Haven't taken practice exams yet. Haven't done simulations yet. NINE CHAPTERS! Still reviewing, forgot everything. NO time! My fault - procrastinator.
- Went to eye doctor. Got new glasses & contacts. Eyes been bothering me = pink eye. Have to wear glasses for a week and I'm also not wearing any eye makeup. Yuck. Eyes still feeling weird sometimes. Difficult to keep open while driving = very bad. I'm going blind, I swear. Eyesight SO bad.
- Cruise in exactly 3 weeks. Need to buy some new clothes and stuff. But can't think about it til after CPA exam. Except that I totally am, and neglecting studying. GRRR.
- Been trying to exercise, eat less & lose weight for cruise. But NOT WORKING! Haven't lost a thing, and crave junk food.
- Gotta do self eval at work by Monday. Don't wanna :(
stressedRecently, I've found myself reading a lot of wedding/engagement stuff on blogs. Quite on accident, I swear. At first anyway.
I occasionally go to iamfashion.blogspot.com. One of the links goes to another fashion blog, Closet Therapy.
The writer of that blog just got engaged and wrote a series of entries about engagement ring shopping, complete with pictures. Got me drooling over Tiffany diamond engagement rings.
I also frequent fabsugar - it's been engagement week, and there's been a lot of stuff on wedding gowns and engagement rings and wedding planning, etc. This also led me to idosugar.com, wedding planning blog.
I've been looking at all these gorgeous rings and gowns and imagining what I would want. All so fascinating to me, but also kinda sad & depressing, realizing I am so alone and it could be a long while before I get to plan a wedding of my own and I don't need to be looking at this.
A bunch of people at work have just gotten engaged. And so many people I knew from high school are already married/having babies. Saw pictures of Eli Manning's wedding this weekend in Mexico. Jim may be asking Pam to marry him on The Office soon. It's everywhere I look. Of course, I feel I'm too young right now to settle down, and I've got my career to think about right now, (not to mention I've never even had a real boyfriend), but I do still think about it. Lately, much more often. And don't even get me started on what happens when I see a baby.
I wouldn't call myself obsessed with weddings, as I haven't planned out what my future wedding will be like. I'm no Monica Geller. And I don't think I'd become a Bridezilla, but I would still like to have my perfect wedding. But when I think about it, I realize I will never get my ideal wedding. (Sometimes I fear I'll never get married and die alone, or that I'll end up settling. But that's a whole 'nother issue.) I don't know exactly what I want, but I know what I don't want. Nearly all Vietnamese weddings are the same. They all have their receptions at a big Chinese restaurant, usually the same one that hosts all the other Vietnamese parties that I've been to my entire life, all serving an identical menu. And the same band. I do not want this. I want an elegant, unique wedding that in some way perfectly reflects me (& my future husband of course), and the Chinese restaurant is just so not my style. It's so noisy and crowded and I don't even like the food, which gets so messy and gross.
And another thing, I don't want to invite 500+ people I don't even know. Vietnamese families do this to help pay for the wedding, since Vietnamese guests give money as gifts. Also, I think to show up their friends' kids' weddings. (Vietnamese parents are ALWAYS comparing their children. In everything.) I'd much prefer a smaller wedding with people I actually know and care about.
A destination wedding would be amazing, but there's no chance that's happening. I want my dream wedding dress, by Vera Wang or Monique Lhuillier, but I will probably have to sacrifice that.
And I fear my parents will not 'get' what kind of wedding I want and decorations and flowers, etc., even my engagement ring, and that I'll have to settle for their aesthetic and what is more traditionally 'Vietnamese'.
And I already know that my future (imaginary) husband's first image of me on our wedding day won't be of me in my white gown walking down the aisle. We'll first have a traditional VIetnamese ceremony at our parents' houses. Which is fine, it's my heritage. But that part was never something I dreamed about as a girl.
Okay, it's official. I'm crazy and scary and obsessive and selfish, and no man will want me if he reads this. He will run far, far away. Still alone.
depressedAnd I thought I could not love Eli Manning any more that I already did! 
That's a Dwight bobble head in his locker! He's an Office fan and a Seinfeld fan? Swoon!
So adorable! I love him, and Peyton. They're both such normal, nice, upstanding guys, in addition to being great quarterbacks. I just love that entire Manning family. I also love the fact that Eli and Peyton are both still with their college sweethearts. (In contrast to Brady, who impregnated, then left actress Bridget Moynahan for supermodel Gisele. He may have the GQ cover-ready looks, but I prefer Eli and Peyton and their nice-guy adorkableness over him any day. SO much hotter.)
All of Peyton's commercials are always great and funny. He's such a natural comedic actor. And this commercial just absolutely cracks me up.
And I love the song! So wonderfully cheesy. "Its the league of the future. For the mighty and the bold....DSRL! DSRL!" I even downloaded the whole theme song to my iPod.
Great look at "THE PLAY", from NFL Films:
http://www.nfl.com/videos?videoId=09000d
Belated congratulations to Eli Manning and the GIants for an AMAZING win at the Super Bowl! They're entire season played out like a movie. Like "Mighty Ducks," only much, much better.
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